Ego Death (a short quip about my own experience with the phenomenon)

#EgoDeath

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Ive been through alot of chaotic & traumatic events in my life & being a deep thinker I’ve probably made these negative events i’ve experienced more painful (or   the positive events more pleasurable.)

Ive noticed that after certain traumatic or simply “bad” life experiences I later gained a deeper understanding of life & of myself that allowed me to grow. The common thread through all these life events where that they crushed parts of my ego.

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Ive heard of destroying ones ego but never was versed on the subject.  I always envisioned arrogant people building their egos like towers of Babel. In turn ive envisioned my ego as built in the form of a pyramid, large but solid of structure. Not having done any real research on ego death I naturaly realised events that have been painfully crushing to me also destroyed parts of my ego & this has allowed me to rebuild a stronger ego based on truth.
I see this as my developing a non illusory ego.
I understand I am but a mere mortal & reaching the goal of complete & consistent egolessness is a Christ like/Buddah like thing. I understand the state of our egos are important to our mental health & that the road to becoming egoless usually leads through insanity so the majority of people wont traverse this road.
I seemed to have happened upon this road & now must walk along it as far as I can in this life time.
Ive recently come to some life decisions & I recognize ive held onto certian jobs & positions inpart because of my ego thus Ive remained stagnant in areas of my life because of my “ego”

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As I escape from the confines of my ego Ive been able to make “egoless” decisions & make better plans to elivate my spiritual standard of living

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#JustBuilding

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